Erase all my feelings

Friendship is totally like Love.

It requires two people to give in & not to take oneself for granted.

If there's only one party that keeps on contributing ,

I can confirm that the friendship won't last long.

& The worst thing is ...

If you only do treasure the frens you like ,

your friendship won't have a happy ending.

Sometimes in life, you will tend to lose even your closed frens.

But what you can do is try to earn them back .

If they didn't give a damn then at least you tried.

I can only say that that friend of yours is STUPID.

Because she/he doesn't know how to cherish a fren like you that cares.

So yup, forget about the friendship & move on.

I trust that you will be even better & stronger without them

 :)

I'm actually in a dilemma now.

I really dunno what should i do.

Forgive for what she did to me?

All those hurtful things she did, HOW POSSIBLE?

Can anyone understand my situation now?

It's easy for ppl to say just forgive ; just ignore.

But how can you when there's hatred in your heart?

It's awful to be hating someone .

But if you dun hate, I'm afraid that the hurt will be back.

I'm afraid of getting hurt so i chose to hate .

Is that wrong to do ?!?!???????????

How i wish i can forget everything ...

As usual, "Easier said than done "

My Proudest Moment

Anyeong everybody, I'm finally back to blogging again.

My sincere apologies for the lack of update.

Had been busy MUGGING for CT2 recently.

Having SS & English exams this week, hmmmmm...

Not confident for my Eng Exams at all x.x

Sad case for me cause i did studied yea.

But well, i take it easy :)

Tomr is MT exams which i had already drop my Chinese.

So yup, tomr IS A FREE DAY FOR ME (Y)

Going to R.P to study with Jia tomr <3

Hope that it would be a fruitful trip there (:

Will take some pics for you to see how it is like in there.

So stay tuned alright (:

Recently, hadn't been blogging much .

( A confession to make : Not much photos TOO! )

Hehehs, anyway i really hate my freaking phone.

Changing in JULY so yup still need to endure for 3 months -.-

I swear i'm going to get a new phone no matter how much it will cost.

Or else it's wasted like my current phone.

Which i spent $200 for just less than a year & now it's like shit.

I rather buy a phone that cost more but can last longer (:

Alrighty, enough of my nonsense.

Here's the pics taken @ HTA for a NPCC honorable event.

FYI - I'm taking a award called SPF badge .

Ever heard of it? If never, learn about it now
!

 Spot me?~~?~?

 <3 this the most ^^

This WILL NOT happened

HELLO everybody, you guys might be wondering why my pic is so big.

ACTUALLY i also dunno why -.

Tried editing this pic UMPTEEN TIMES but it's still like that.

So i gave up... HAHA

Okayy well, today i'm a good girl.

Stayed at home to MUG FOR CT2!!!

Still wondering why it is not MYE for us >:(

But well, CT2 is coming real fast!

Next wed,it's my ENGLISH exam already.

Haishh, haven't start preparing yet..

English Oral just ended, think it's alright for me.

Dun fail can ler x.x

Can't wait for CT2 to be over (Y)

Last Saturday , went to J.P with Yihan.

It's been quite a long time since i last went there.

Actually was supposed to buy swimming costume but ...

Still cant find my desired one .

Haishh, shall wait for nice ones bah ):

Instead, Yihan bought a lot of things, HAHA.

Shopping queen <3

Cam-whoring time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My eyes difference x.x

Wanna show off my double eyelids, HAHA

Retarded pout face

Like this though

So cute !!

Hahha , my eyes is sooooooooooooooooo

Hamster YIHAN!

My turn for BIG EYES already ^^

My unglamn face.




Really had a lot of fun with this lady here <3

Bye bye~~

I did my best as much as i could

Hello readers, I'm FINALLY BACK.

Sorry for the MIA-ING without notice for almost 1 week.

Had been busy with my grandpa's wake.

Last Sunday, my grandpa was pronounced death in the hospital.

His death is really unexpected and sudden.

I couldn't believe & accept it.

One moment he seemed to be fine & the next he is dead.

I watched him dying after catching his last breath.

The experience is really saddening & unforgettable.

I really don't want my grandpa to die & leave us.

But he have to ; in order to end his suffering.

So we should set him free, let him go to a better place & enjoy.

At least we can get to see him for the last or else

I think i will be guilty like mad -.-

But one thing is really bothering me for the whole week.

Which is R.E.G.R.E.T.S!!!!!!!!!

By saying the truth, i promised my grandpa that

I will fold 1000 cranes for him to wish him good health.

But i didn't get a chance to fold 1000 & he died.

If i had worked hard to fold until 1000, he might not died.

So i regretted to the max & hated myself.

Why didn't i work harder?

Why am i complacent?

If only i worked harder, so maybe my grandpa will live?

Okayy but all these doesn't matter anymore.

He is dead already.

No matter what you do, he cannot be alive anymore.

REALLY THANKS TO MY AUNT who made me feel better.

As i've only folded 500 cranes for my grandpa which i felt guilty too,

I need to fold 500 more within 49 days.

This goal is definitely reachable cause actually i spent

4 days folding more than 300 cranes...

& The last of the funeral , i didn't sleep at all.

(Not to show off how good i am )

But i really did my best to accompany my grandpa for the last.

I kept talking to him , telling him my thoughts.

Though idk he can hear me anot but at least he knew MY THOUGHTS.

So yupp, after all these thinking ,

I'm finally fine again.

&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&

I want to THANK all my frens that gave me care/support/concern

these few days.

All those wishes really make me stonger (:

Not only that i also want to SPECIAL thanks :

Yijia, Sophia, Wei Jian, Zheng Hui, Nicole, Ayaka, Jeremy, Glenn...

For helping me fold the cranes ...

Without them , i swear i can't make it to 500 cranes within 1 week.

(FYI- before my grandpa died, i've only fold 200 cranes)

So yup, i'm deeply touched when they offered to help me (:

Lastly,

I've sorted out my thinkings.

I knew that my grandpa will definitely be better in the heaven.

So yup, as his granddaughter, i really wish him all the best.

I promised that i will be strong !!!

&&&

Though he had already passed away, he will stay in my heart forever.

He's my best 阿公 EVER!!!

The 500 cranes that my sisters & i made for him.

After 49 days, the amount will be doubled.

& My promise will be kept (:

Gratified

ANYEONG everybody!!!

FYI- This is my NPCC full uniform ...

Hmm nice right?! Hah, here to show off my badges~~

It will be my last time wearing it so ya ;

Must cam-whore a bit so as to save for memories.

Npcc really teached me a lot of things &

There's always this phrase called :

"One for all ; All for one "

Still rememebered the times when i'm in sec 1 with my squad mates.

Time really passed quickly without waiting for anyone.

It seemed like it only happened ytd but actually it's 4 years ago.

So yuppp, i really do miss my squad mates though...

&&& I've finally learnt how to POLISH MY BOOTS ; LOL.

From a person that hated npcc ;

To a slacker that knows nothing but misbehave ;

To a person who starts to buck up & try to learn everything .

This is how my life is when i'm in npcc.

ANYWAY ; got this SPF badge on wed.

I'm really honored to get this badge (:

I will always remember my CI's that gave me this chance.

Though i never get to thank them personally,

I'm really grateful (:

Smiling happily @ the LAST npcc training.

(:

Though there are happy/sad moments in npcc,

the memories are all etched eternally in my heart (:

Overcome my fear

Today is my LAST NP training (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)

Finally , my loneliness agony is over!!!!

Though i'm not always enthu in np trainings,

my np clique made them enjoyable & fun .

But this year is definitely different...

I feel so damn lonely & aimless during those trainings.

I'm just like an useless person roaming around nothing to do.

So yup, I HOPE/ PRAY/ WISH that i can stand down ASAP.

F.I.N.A.L.L.Y finally, my wish came true.

I CAN BE FREE DURING EVERY THURSDAY already (:

& Today , i kind of take my very first step.

I walked home alone after np training.

To others, it mean nothing to you guys.

But i dare to say that this is a BIG achievement for me.

Especially when you alone need to pass by the crowd of other uni groups.

Ever since i'm sec 1, i'm always in my comfort zone.

When i need company, my frens are there.

But now , it's different ; I'm alone without them.

So yup, i need to TRY & step out using my own will.

(FYI : i'm always afraid what ppl think of me like 'lonely emo kid')

I'm proud that i can overcome my fear of loneliness.

One last thing i wan to say is :

" It's perfectly normal to be alone & you're brave to be like one "

My 1000th post!

ANYEONG peeps, I'm back yea :D

Got quite a lot of HAPPY things to tell you all~

So yup, I'm feeling very happy now (Y)

• First : This is my 1000th post OKIEEE!

I'm so proud of myself ; really.

It's like a miracle that i have come so far .

I've started blogging since i'm in secondary 1.

Until now, i'm still blogging .

Imagine my childrens saw my blogg ?!?!?! WTS man.

• Second : We had our class photo taken !!!

Good thing is I get to stand @ the 2nd row!

Omggg, so freaking happy man <3

& I get to stand with my Best Friend 'Sophia ; haha.

Hope the class photos turned out well , (Y)

• Third : I'm getting SPF badge award tomr

Damn shiok man, getting the award is my honour.

I'm really lucky to be chosen in getting this award.

(Though i dun think that i deserve it )

• Fourth : My last CCA TRAINING! (totally shiok )

Means i can stop gg for cca on every thursday!

Really (Y) ; i've been waiting for this moment for 5 years x.x

Though i will miss my sec 1s but yup , I STILL WANT IT.

• Last: For just this week, WE ARE FREE DURING EL periods!!

Omgg, totally awesome YEA!!! The period is the one i hated most.

So yup , not having it is like TEN TIMES SHIOK :D

Last but not least,

To make my post more enriching & fulfilling,

Pictures will cover the rest so yup enjoy~~~

Class photo! SPOT ME?!!?!

Class Girls with Geek Specs~~~

Okayy this GIRL in this photo is SUPER DUPER SWEET.

She is my best primary sch fren & till now it is too!!

Her name is Eunice mok ^^

Yuppp, she knitted this pencil case for me PERSONALLY.

Omggg, do you know how long it is to knit this?!?!

This pencil case is priceless & freaking VALUABLE.

Love it to the max big thanks to EUNICE.

& It's PURPLE-ISH!!! ^^

:D