Sunday, March 29, 2015

2016 PLAN

Late night thoughts again...

I'm just so glad that i didn't delete my blog despite leaving it to rot for so long.
Because it is a perfect platform for me to write out my true feelings & trace my thoughts.

After contemplating for ages, I've finally decided what i want.
I know it's still early to make plans for the future.
But i really can't wait to pen down the thoughts I've in mind right now.
For these past 2 years, I've been giving my best in everything i do.
Be it driving or studying.
Trust me, I've never been so serious in my entire life.

And today,
I asked myself this question 
"Why am i slogging so hard for?"
Initially, my aim was "I want to enter local university and attain a degree at least"
Because it's clearly the fact that:
In Singapore, you cannot go anywhere without a degree.
And i regret to mention that I was not born from a wealthy family as well.
That's why i was so scared that if i didn't enter university, my future will be bleak.

The most common question asked by many was :
"What do you want to do in the future?"
In my business school, most of them replied " I want to be an entrepreneur"
It's rather admiring of course but sadly, I've no interest.
My answer would be rather straightforward- I want to be a property agent in the future.
Which led to my next point :
Why do you need a degree when you're going for the sales industry?
Isn't it good enough if you are a silver tongued speaker?
At first, i thought that being outspoken and talkative would be able to make it.
But nope, you have to be eloquent enough in order to convince your customers.
If you speak like a kid aimlessly, you can never clinch the deal.

So for the sake of my future,
I've thought of 3 things that i wanted to do.

Idk how many times I've mentioned this on my blog, my English is still unacceptable.
So i want to change the way i speak, of course to a more profound way
Starting from now.
I don't want to waste time regretting why i did not fix my English when i have the chance to.
Lai chien qin, there's no time for contemplation.
It's either you do it now or just forget about it and continue to be a country bumpkin.

2. Make it to local university
Yes, I've mentioned this before too.
To be honest, my current GPA is only 3.47
Well, this GPA is even worse than my first sem which was 3.5
No matter how hard i tried, i just can't seem to increase my GPA
How am i gonna make it to local uni when my current GPA is only like this?
And i'm only left with the last sem to pull up my grades 
Do you honestly think it's possible?

So I've thought about it.
Yes, i'm referring to my future.
It's time to face the reality and be prepared for the worst.
If i couldn't make it to local university, I'm not gonna choose SIM straightaway.
Sorry, I've never had a good impression of SIM honestly.

3. Apply for SIA- to become an air stewardess.
I know this aspiration is a bit far fetched and people might even think i'm joking or whatever.
But i'm serious.
Since I'm not born to be good at anything, this is a good opportunity to try something new.
I really wanted to try ...
Despite all the rumors and difficulties I've heard, I'm still going to try. (no matter what)
But if i fail, i'm gonna apply for SIM or i would join the work society.

Nothing brings you down if you become your own inspiration.
So that's the aim i'm going for. 

So, that concludes my 2016 PLAN which will only commences after my graduation.
Which i'm left with exactly 1 more year before I've to make a tough decision.
Till then, bye

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

All OR Nothing

It's been 3 months since i left my blog dead
And FYI; it's my longest period..
Idk why but the reason why is because I've lost the motivation of blogging.
Since nobody bothers to read it anyways.
Hahah but i still blog for the sake of memories.
I want to blog about my current life so that,
in the near future, (when i'm bored) ; i will look through and thought "Oh i did this when i was 16"
Hah, it's kind lame but it would be meaningful as the time goes.
Because you will never be able to keep track of time.
You can wait for the time to pass but Time don't stop just because you want it to.
So in short, the world don't revolve around You .
Life goes on no matter what...

When you were young, you genuinely wished to be older .
But when you were older, you wanted to be young so badly.
Sadly; life is full of irony and you have to live with it.
I just couldn't believe that I'll be turning 20 this year.
And i thought to myself " What have I accomplished over the past 20 years?"
People would be like, oh that's easy .
[I've achieved 1st place for academic results when I was p5]
And as for me?

Yes, nothing (for now)
So i made a pact to myself when i was 16.
I told myself that i will earn my first $10k before i reach 21; all by myself.
That explains totally why i am working like a sloth not because i want to;
Note: There's a difference of want / must
As my family's tradition is all about being independent; can you choose not to work?
Hah, come to think of it- I've been taking 2 jobs ever since i entered poly.
And maybe, I'm turning to a workaholic whom i never knew i would become.

I've received my academic results.
And i got a shock of my life due to NYP's personal message.
Little did i know, NYP eventually sent a text to my phone to inform my grades.
Well, i didn't expect them to lend a helping hand when i don't need it LOL
Seriously, I almost died of a broken heart when i saw a C in my grade.
Well apparently, the module was not graded so i don't understand why NYP has to include in it-.-
Honestly, i had high hopes for this sem's results.
And yup, it wasn't the best i foresee but at least, there's an improvement.
Just in short, i'm still disappointed...
Blame it on my overconfidence or complacency, yea the feeling sucks.
Like the feeling that you thought you can ACE it and boom, HAH YOU CAN'T GET IT.
So i tell myself as a reminder,
I will do even better for my last sem.
For the sake of myself
For the sake of my future
I will work extra harder this time.
Say goodbye to my complacency, laziness
I'm giving out ALL or nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Sorry i need this self- encouragement to salvage my broken heart.
Don't mind me,
Till then :)