It's over

I experienced it before not once; not twice ; way more than that

& well it's the same everytime.

Ironic much? Or i called it ULTIMATELY STUPID.

For giving so many chances that i had lost count everything.

But this time is the worst * i swear

& this incident really left me an indelible memory

CLEARLY ETCHED in my head.

The feeling that you really feel like crying ;

The feeling that you want to shout : WHAT THE FUCK.

The feeling that you want to talk to the person you trust SO MUCH.

The feeling that you feel so lonely & ashamed.

The feeling that you feel so indignant & unfair.

You really feel like breaking down.

Tears forming in your eyes.

But this time i did hold back my tears.

& I did it because i'm immune to it already.

Thanks really.

Best at abusing people's heart.

HOW COULD I EVEN BELIEVE YOU?

I must be so freaking gullible.

Crying ; Getting sad over the same old thing again.

In the end i just forgive of what u did& treat u back nicely.

& this is what i get back.

Haven't i given you enough chances/ trust?

Karma will come.

I strongly believe in it.

The hurt that you had given me ; you will get back.

I know that God is fair ...

Totally give up on you already

ANYEONG PEEPS ; i'm finally BACK yea!!

Miss me?!?!!?!?!?!!?!

Anywayy today's my first of SCHOOL HOLIDAY (Y)

Actually i'm back from NPCC camp ytd but you know i'm too lazy.

These 3 days in camp ; i only slept for less than 1oh.

Pro right?! Should take pic to let you guys see my dark rings.

Hah, mixed feelings during the camp lah.

But all the way was saddddd ; haish .

Let's not talk about the sad things okieee.

My life has been nightmares when my npcc clique were gone.

I don't blame anyone but just myself.

Okayy whatever ...

BUT ONE THING THAT MAKES ME HAPPY :

" THE SECS 1 ARE SO CUTEEEEEE!!!!"

They really make my day man (Y)

After camp; directly went home .

Unpack bag > Bathe> Eat > Use comp> Sleep for 2h.

After that went to work @ Clarke Quay.

Sooo hardcore right? Hahah , i shall call it diligent... * heh

Work was like so slack thanks to the wet weather!

& I'm so lucky to work with Jessica, HEHE (:

Cam-whore a lot of pics @ our shop.

Hahah, surprisingly ; many ppl kept on looking @ us.

Enough of all the craps & rants.

PICTURES TIME!!!!

Look alike? AHHA

Cute right?!

Be there when i need you

First of all :

A HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO ANDY & VANNA!!!!

My apology for the late birthday presents, hehe :x

Secondly :

THIS IS DAMN IMPORTANT.

I'm going NPCC camp tomr!!!!

Omggg, actually i hate camp A LOT , haha.

Cause i will miss my bed & everything lah!

My only wish is : I can eat/sleep well there...

Which is like kinda impossible ?!?!

Just hope that i can sleep well will do uh x.x

So i will stay MIA for just 3 days!

HAHA, will be back on sunday yo (:

Hopefully, can get to bond more with sec 4s & 1s ^-^

Lastly : TODAY'S SPORT CARNIVAL!

The day that i had been waiting for SOOOOOOO LONGGGG.

Hehehs, the relay run that i had been excited all the time.

FINALLY, i can be the LAST RUNNER!

Woots, i finally fulfilled my dreams ; BIG THANKS to tiffany!!!

Though we got 2ND , i really did my best!

So i'm satisfied & proud about it actually, hehe~

My best life EXPERIENCE ever ! (:

Okie done , i'm really tired.

Goodbye (:

I hate it

Getting my hopes real up ;

Making me FEEL SUPER HAPPY ;

Then all of a sudden ;

POOFF.

Everything was just a dream/illusion ?!?!?!

Or simply you've just been cheated?

Your mood will be like roller-coaster ;

GOING UP & DOWN ...

The worst thing is You can't get over it for ages!

It's not like you refuse but is you CAN'T -_____-
Then your tears just kept on flowing ;

Scolding yourself why you're so stupid to believe ?

So i really HATE IT WHEN I SUFFERED FROM IT.

Let me tell you guys one thing :

It's PERFECTLY NORMAL to have false hopes .

I swear; i always think of unbelievable things.

But sadly ; it didn't happen...

It's okay to harbour those false hopes!!!

However, don't believe it's true unless it really do happen!

要人家体谅你，就要先体谅人家

HELLO peeps, I'm actually in a very good mood today.

But just now got pissed by my ... , mood spoiled -.=

Sometimes i really want to tell her :

If she expect me to understand her more;

Then fucking try to understand from my perspective too -.-

Be more understandable lah, PLEASE.

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Okayy back to HAPPY TIMES!

Today is an EXTREMELY AWESOME day! (Y)

Had an enjoyable time with my classmates ~

Hope there will be more outings like this (:

Today went to East Coast Park in the morning for

SAND CASTLE BUILDING! :D

Hmm, it's kind tiring+ fun at the same time.

One thing is : THE WEATHER'S FREAKING AWESOME.

Didn't rain + Not sunny at all, shiok to the max.

Afternoon went to TOWN with classmates (:

First ; went to lucky plaza to play pool!!!

Played like 2 hours of pool ; many epic moments happened.

After deciding for like 15 mins , went to XIN WANG cafe!

My first time going there to eat :D

The price is so damn expensive *heartpain.

But the food is quite nice actually.

Then went to SCAPE walk walk around ...

Thankfully ; didn't spend any money (:

Around 10++, took bus back to lot.

Saw Andy they all & Someone ^-^ at bus, so qiao lol...

took these photos when i'm at work.

Happened to see those statues which caught my eye.

CUTE RIGHT?!?!?!?!

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My tears just keep on flowing.

Really ; there are so MUCH problems to handle while living.

Sometimes i rather to die than to live.

Never-ending problems ; all waiting for you to solve.

Everything is decided by fate ; you can't change anything.

If God wants to die @ this age; You must die.

Why can't we choose our own path; our own fate?

Everything has been decided even before you're born.

Aren't you like a prisoner waiting to be sentenced when the time comes?

& All you can do is just accept it "This is life"

As for me ; I want to lead a HAPPY & CAREFREE LIFE.

To me, living sadly is = to a dead person.

But when will i ever be happy for life?

I tried to be happy everyday but my wish did not come true.

Problems come & go whenever there are chances...

• Friendship/ Love/ Family/ Money/ Studies/ Stress/Homework.

ALL SORTS OF PROBLEMS CAN IT BE.

Tired of solving never-ending problems/ troubles.

I just hope one day i can really be free

FROM ALL THESE SHIT.

Now, my grandfather is lying in the hospital due a serious fall.

He is so old already but yet he need to endure these.

& The shitty thing is he need to go for a operation.

HE IS 85 YEARS OLD ALREADY & fuck this.

He is so THIN even thinner than me.

Yet, he need to go through all these.

& Me ; i can only stand by ; doing nothing.

How i wish i can do something to make him feel better.

Seeing him in the ICU ; so weak & can't even speak

Makes me feel so ....

Why is life so unfair??!?!?!?!!

& I swear ICU is really a fucking scary place.

Anytime when the machine makes some sound, it will scare the hell out of you.

You dunno what's going to happen.

You can only sit there ; doing nothing or maybe praying?

I feel so useless that i can't help him.

I'm so HEALTHY , energetic ,strong .

Yet i can't give some to him.

I can only sit back & do nothing.

I don't deserve to be like this .......

You see, i can definitely live without love.

ANYEONG peeps, I'm back yea~

I'm actually half happy; half saddddd...

Just watched finished 步步惊心 after 1 week?

Haishh, the ending really CMI to the max...

Butttt the journey was AWESOME (Y)

• Sadddd cause the ending SUCKS...
• Happy cause there's 步步惊心二！！

Buttt idk whether the second part is reliable anot.

Scarly dun even have part two nor )):

Somemore still need to wait for a long time before it's aired ):

Haish, just hope that it's REAL nor!!!

Confirm + chop wan to buy the DVD ; hehes.

It's really a nice & DIE DIE MUST WATCH show (Y)

Hope i can blogg more often (:

Cause i no longer need to watch shows anymore.

& Think i can abide to using 2h comp per day (:


Take a look @ the OLD ME!!!

FYI : It's when i'm in primary 5...

Taken @ China//.