Guilty

Hi, this will be 

AN EMO NEMO POST posted by me 

once again...

Guilt overwhelmed me this time round.

I really feel that i'm a LOUSY & SELFISH person.

I'm too obsessed over how unhappy i am that i'm oblivious to people surrounding me.

Because there is sadness, bitter and sorrow hidden in my heart.

That i don't give a damn to others' feelings except mine.

What i cares about is just how am i going to keep myself occupied HAPPILY.

And what i didn't realise is i failed to care the people who truly care for me.

When i am sad, i expect them to be there for me.

But when they are sad, i am not there.

And i am out there enjoying myself with others.

I really feel bad now.

I shouldn't be so self-centered who only cares about my own feelings.

I shouldn't forsake anyone because of any reason.

I shouldn't take anyone for granted.

Let the hurt be bygones and not let it stays.

Though it's late to apologize my selfish acts, i want to say :

I'm sorry

to those people whom i hurt, forgotten or didn't care

Truly sorry for being so selfish x.x

What are best friends for

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEN YI JIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omg you're finally 18 , yay 老了 :P

Haha, hope you enjoy your bdae with me today! (:

Though it's just a simple celebration,

just a simple card,

just a simple present ,

I genuinely want you to enjoy your birthday well

& Of course to be happy forever yea!

Let's stay in contact till we grow old , BFF ♥

Thanks for everything you have done for me :)

I'm really thankful that to have a friend like you, YIJIA FTW !!!! 

Catch me when i fall

Hi guys.

I have 2 things to share about today.

Actually i also dunno why am i sharing this .

Ok whatever, sharing for the sake of fun, i guess? hah.

1. Currently, i'm allergic to smth that i'm not even sure of.

Okay, this is seriously getting on my nerves.

Everytime i ate that smth, i will get rashes on my whole face.

I have been working in Pitchstop for like 3 weeks?

& Everytime i ate AGLIO OLIO, my face will be like (*&*%^#$@

My first guess of that smth was Bacon.

& I was pretty confident that i'm allergic to Bacon.

Until today, i ate Turkey Bacon pizza for lunch.

 My face is perfectly fine.

Holy shit, so WHAT EXACTLY IS THAT SMTH which i'm allergic to?

I really had no idea what is it *raise white flag*

It's like finding one needle in the dark blue sea , WTS.

Can someone tell me how am i going to solve the mystery?

 So it's the AGLIO OLIO that's giving me problems.
Chopped Garlic ?
Ham bacon ?
Sauce?
Mushroom ?
Or is it PASTA ?
I'm really clueless ... T.T

     2. I finally bought my laptop ytd @ $1322

Having mixed feelings after buying this .

I felt that i have just been scammed , ROFL.

Cause this was actually the display set #trueconfession.

I can only say that i'm not thinking rationally when i bought it.

Or maybe i am just pure stupid.

Lol, somemore it's at this pricing ...

Why did i buy (a-not-entirely-new) laptop when i have so many other choices.

Wts am i thinking when i bought this ? LOL #okcan

Okay so it looks like this.

It's really ultra thin and it's weight is only 1.3kg.

Frankly speaking, i love all of the laptop's functions.

Except the fact that IT'S A DISPLAY ONE.

But i can't change the fact so i shall just suck thumb & live with it.

Just hope that this laptop wouldn't brings me any big problems.

& Last till 3 years later *tyvm.

But i guess i will only use my lappy during school, haha.

Still prefer my real computer no matter what :P

Hahah okay bye~  

Whatever, life still goes on

Anyeong peeps.
Yay, going IT FAIR with Ji Wun later :D
Hope i can buy a good laptop back, *PLEASE*
I don't want it to be a waste trip ya.
Okay, shall spend a little time to update my life.
Currently, i have become more muscular lately *oh well*
Haha, BIG thanks to this current job.
At first, i find this job real tough & tiring .
Cause it needs a lot of strength to carry all those dishes.
But i can say that time really passed very quickly while working.
It's like you're so busy till you can't even drink a sip of water.
After that, i'm starting to get used to this job.
So yup, it wasn't that bad afterall , ROFL.
Planning to quit on 12th April and i'm starting sch on 15th.
Basically, i'm not really excited for Poly to start.
I hate adjusting to new environment and how anti-social i am.
I dislike making new friends #trueconfession
But well, i cannot do anything to change anything .
So yup, i just had to suck thumb and move on.


Whenever i look at my bankbook, i can't help but sigh.
Spending way too much that i'm supposed to.
My actual aim is to earn at least $2k for this long break.
But ended up i guess i can only save $1.5k at most.
People asked me why i want to earn so much $$$ for.
That's when i know they dunno a shit about me, my life .
If you're in my situation, you wouldn't be otherwise.
-At my age -
Do you still take money from your parents despite working?
Do your parents buy whatever you plead ?
Do you work for the sake of fun ?

If yes, then you're so damn lucky.
So you wouldn't understand the feeling of being poor.
If "money" is never an issue to you,
Then how can you expect me to be like you?
(If you get what i mean)


Okay, i'm done saying.
Tata...

Bkk trip !

Hello peeps, i'm finally back to posting.

Sorry for neglecting my blog like for real long.

Yea, my last post was kind of random actually.

I was getting a little too emotional which explained my previous post.

Didn't mean to ruin anyone's mood or whatever.

IT'S RARE ok, LOL.

Previously, i didn't blog for 4 days because of the bkk trip.

I actually blogged about me going overseas the day before i actually left sg.

But the funny thing is my post is saved as draft.

LOL, so yup i seemed like i MIA-ed for a little while...

#Warning, it's a super long & draggy post.

Regretted not taking pictures of how Bangkok looks like, SIAN...

But dun worry, i'm going bkk in June again.

So (I will make sure i will take a lot a lot a lot of photos by then ) 

Okay back to updating !

Went to BANGKOK with my dearest classmates last week(:

It's a 4 days 3 nights trip which i sincerely think it's not enough.

Spent our first day at the airport so yup nothing much.

Simply love the hotel room so much especially the bathtub, haha.

I love bathing in bathtubs, hehe ^^

FYI, the hotel i'm living at is called Furama Hotel.

I shall rate it 5 stars though it's only 4 stars rating. 

The bed is very comfortable except that there's no bolster ):

& Erm, I'm not used to fluffy pillows.

So guess what i did...

I took the sofa's pillow and substituted it as my pillow.

While i used the fluffy pillow to act as bolster #lupsup

-Day 2-

Woke up at 4+ in the morning which i slept at actually 2am.

Totally shag please, LOL.

Took cab to Pratunam Market for the "wholesale" promotion.

It's just like Bugis Street actually , nothing special.

Spent like 3 hours shopping there before heading back to hotel for breakfast.

After that went to Chatuchak which we basically spent the whole day there.

The weather there is like WOW .

Compared to sg's weather, it's like x10000 times hotter.

I'm thankful that i didn't become a roasted pig despite the weather, LOL.

The things sold there were quite cheap too.

My best buy is of course the HAT!!!!!!!!!!

Bought like $10 sgd which is counted as cheap compared to the quality.

TADA :D 

At night, went for THAI MASSAGING near our hotel O.O

The duration is around 1 hour. 

It costed around 300 baht so do your math if you wan to convert it.

Hahah, it's not bad afterall so it's a MUST try yo!

The ambience there is really too tempting to fall asleep. 

It's so relaxing that i slept while being massaged, LOL.

But one thing i really hate about it is when she touched my funny bone.

I literally jumped up when my funny bone was being pressed on.

It's so damn itchy and omg no, i really hate that feeling >:(

So if your thighs isn't sensitive like mine, you can try it.

-Day 3-

Finally had my 7 hours of sleep, totally awesome!

Had our breakfast @ the hotel once again, haha.

Then headed to the swimming pool, YAY.

Was supposed to swim but the swimming pool is too small , LOL.

Kind of disappointed when i first saw it... 

Played "Monkey" in the water after borrowing a ball .

Quite fun actually but the weather is really (*&*(^$@

Regretted not wearing swimming costume down, lol. 

Hah, luckily i'm not those kind who will get sunburn easily #heng

Then we headed to Platinum Mall which is so damn huge.

I swear 1 day isn't enough to shop there, seriously.

LOL, so in the end we didn't get to shop finish T.T

Can't imagine the things i will buy if i finish shopping the whole mall :/

After shopping, went to nearby roadstalls to have our dinner.

Tom Yum soup was nice but was too spicy already x.x

Then went to "BIG C"- one of the shopping centres in bk.

Started our last minute shopping for food in their supermarket , OMG.

One thing quite cool about the supermarket is -

You can check how much your item cost by scanning it.

hahha, to let you all have a feel of how being a cashier feels like ~ 

In shopping for clothes, i bought the most among girls.

In shopping for food, i still spent the most among the rest.

Had to buy a lot of food back home for my greedy family members :P

During the night, went to FOOT MASSAGING again.

The service there is really bagus!!!

It costed around 250 baht so do your math once again. 

As usual, slept again while getting massaged.

Simply too comfortable and shiok already :D

If can, i hope that i am able to visit the shop back again in JUNE !

Since it's counted as our last night in hotel, all of us decided to ton.

Played a lot of games like Saboteur, Poker and Truth/Dare.

I swear i really sucked at the first game, T.T

& One epic thing happened , ROFL. 

Was laughing at one of my friends whose  *'s  dropped down to other levels of the hotel.

Guess what.

When i went back to my room , i realised my fbt dropped down too.

Holy shit, MY FAVOURITE FBT EH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The weird thing is my friend also hung hers out together with mine.

But hers flew in and mine flew out #winliaolor

Lesson learnt : Karma do happens T.T 

-Day 4- 

Only slept for half an hour then headed to airport already.

Cause our departure flight was like 9am , argh so early.

Haha, i will never ever forget the super duper UNGLAMN faces we all have

due to L.A.C.K O.F S.L.E.E.P.

Aiya , should have taken some pictures of those epic moments down :/

Memories yo.

Okie done updating about bkk trip!

Hope pk faster upload the photos so that i can share them here, haha.

Didn't cam-whore a lot during this trip cause its like -

When you wake up, your face is like swollen due to lack of sleep.

Then when you get back, your face is so shag and tired.

I swear you really don't have the mood to cam-whore, lol.

Especially people like me who is very face-conscious :P

I thought i really gain weight during this trip.

Cause it's like i just kept eating non-stop and taking short naps right after that.

& All of them said that my face became rounder .

But i guess it's just an illusion, LOL #sian.

One bad thing is I AM SO DARK RIGHT NOW.

Not to exaggerate but ya 

(I don't think you can see me if the lights are switched off) #nojoke

Pictures time! ^^ 

With pk, yijia and I. 

At Sg's airport, haha acting like a tourist here~~~ 

At Bkk's airport , hehe. 

Third day outside Platinum Mall with the girls cam-whoring~ 

All of us are wearing the same shirt!!!! Cool beans ^^ 

Will upload asap when i receive the photos ^^

Anyway just wanna ask a question .
Anyone knows why is it called BKK instead of BK?
I know that BK stands for Bangkok.
How about the last K?
Please don't tell me it's called Bangkokkok actually, ROFL.
Ok i'm talking without sense, bye~

Tearing apart

Feeling really really really miserable right now

I have enough of all this shit.

Please, please, please just end my misery.

I'm left stranded in an unknown island.

With no one but myself.

Who can i find someone to help ?

I'm tired of acting like i'm fine when i am not.

I'm tired of acting like i'm strong when i'm just so weak.

I'm tired of opening up to anyone anymore

I just kept my feelings all bottled up and FUCK.

I can't take this anymore, really.


I really detest myself for being so weak.
Why can't i be stronger?
Why can't i just pretend that i'm fine?
Why can't i fucking forget everything ?


Fuck all this shit, really.
I'm just so tired and numb of everything.
Telling myself to stop crying .
But i just can't

Hello peeps...

I've something to share about my job ( once again)

Ok FYI, i'm currently working in one of the cafes in NTU as waitress.

Though it's just my third day there, i find it  quite enriching.

One interesting thing about this job is My boss is actually an NTU-ian.

Means he is currently still schooling while opening his own business.

Find it quite cool & amazing for a young man to be able to achieve this, LOL.

At first when he first came in, i tot that he is just a helper like me x.x

So i'm really shocked that he is actually the boss :O

Whatever the case, i've a feeling that working here would be great.

So yup, i promised the manager to work till mid of April 

AND YES, i'm not going to job hope anymore.

I swear i learnt my lesson for taking jobs lightly.

So yes, i rejected a promoter job today.

Btw, the pay is like $7.50 per hour & it's in J.P!!!

If i'm selected by that before working this waitress job, i will definitely choose that.

But i guess it's fate that i can't .

So yup, NO REGRETS since i had promised already :)

Though i'm just earning $6 an hour for now, 

AT LEAST

It's not a boring job and keeps me ULTRA busy.:D

An irony incident that happened today... 

Main character : DAD & I.

Today, i had an ULTRA big quarrel with Dad.It's been a long time since i had ever been so angry with dad already. I was so angry @ him that i cried while ranting at him. ( behaving like a willful kid, i swear) We were pushing blames at each other, arguing for like nearly an hour. IN PUBLIC. Ok,this is seriously embarrassing and serious. I'm thankful that my dad didn't give me a tight slap at my face despite my attitude. I'm really rude and demanding at him and i'm so so so guilty right now. Ultimately, both of us are in the wrong but we refused to admit. In the end, the quarrel was resolved due to our impromptu laughter. Then, i realised how stupid we are to quarrel over a small little thing for an hour. Lol, still cannot believe we can resolved just by laughing @ each other. You can try this with your parents if you happen to quarrel with them. Maybe it works, LOL.