I just can't figure it out

Counting down, 13 more days to go !

Tormenting myself everyday with books

and more books,

ENDLESS books.

Feel like giving everything up and just #YOLO.

But i can't. 

And what's worrying me the most is my GPA. 

That is totally how i felt when i think about my GPA this sem.

Especially that this sem is so much harder than last sem -.-

Really don't have the confidence that i can score even better this time round.

Sighhh, just got back my Effective Writing result .

Real disappointed but sort of expected it. 

What can i do when my English couldn't make it?

How am i going to score well for this module when 

My English couldn't even make the cut. :'( 

Honestly, i only started speaking English everyday when i came to poly.

Certainly not a good English speaker and it's a norm to get laughed at.

But getting mocked is a different thing, isn't it?

Yes, my English is poor.

Yes, i stutter whenever i speak English. 

Yes, i suck at everything when it comes to English.

Just because of the cruel truth that my English is weak like nobody's business.

That means i had to live with all these mockery and stuffs?

 Never gonna give anybody a SINGLE chance to mock at me ever again.

For now and near future,

I'm determined to improve my ENGLISH standard.

Thus, making friends with my all-along enemy (BOOKS) is unavoidable

Gonna brush up my English standard by reading as many books as i can during the holidays.

No matter how TOUGH the process might be, i'm never gonna give up.

I'd prove you wrong.

Mark my words ... 

"Nobody is good at everything ; Nobody is good at nothing" 

When there is a will, there's a way.

If you believe in yourself that you can, you will.

Instead of being negative that you can't, have a little faith in yourself.

Even if you fail, smile because you tried your best.

(: