Inferiority

Hey!

Hmm it's been ages since i last blogged about my life.

Okay, FYI- currently i'm having school holidays .

Hahah for as long as i would like to. Kidding.

Till mid oct which is not a very long break, i suppose.

Sigh, but at least better than nothing, isn't it?

Okay, had been fretting over finding jobs recently.

& Yes, i found one which is working @ Magnum cafe ( Vivocity )

Apparently, i'm not very interested in the job but the pay. :P

Aside from that, i went to Awfully chocolate's interview today.

Frankly speaking, i'm really keen to join Awfully choco.

And if i have to choose between AC or Magnum, obviously it will be AC.

Why is this so?

Cause in AC, i get to learn more things and gain more experience than  magnum.

Though the pay is so much lesser than Magnum.

However, i think i shall drop the idea of being able to work in AC.

Went to Awfully choco's interview today and i swear :

THE COMPETITION IS SUPER INTENSE.

It's like there are 30++ strangers joining you in the interview.

And what? You have to act like super hyper/ chatty in front of them.

The atmosphere there is totally bizarre and awkward.

Totally underestimated how hard the interview will be .

Felt so inferior because of my standard. Yea, just my low-esteem acting up again.

Great, another motivation to make me strive hard to improve my command of english... 

Ok previously, i have been rejected simultaneously because of my looks.

Which i'm still feeling indignant about it. Till now.

I mean like what's wrong with people not looking like their age?

Shouldn't only the required age matters?

I'm seriously done with people who didn't give me a chance judging by my looks.

Wtf man, if you rejected me because i'm ugly.

Okay fine, i accept my fate. 

But looking young? So is there a problem?

Why do you judge my ability according to my looks? Fair much? 

I think the majority still has the perspective that 

"the older you look, the more experienced he/she is"

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So i tried my best to look mature today for this interview.

Apparently, putting make-up on is certainly not my forte. 

Plan failed because i'm still mistaken at the age of 16. 

Guess i can't do anything to make me look more mature.

I should jolly well concentrate on working hard for Magnum.

Fat hope to enter AC alright... 

Byeeeeee~