Don't matter anymore

Honestly,

I don't care a hoot about how important friendship is.

Yes, last time i used to think that i'm so blessed with so many friends.

But now, i sincerely beg to differ.

Totally amused because of my stupidity.

So what if you have so many friends?

Best friends? How many do you have?

Last time, i can proudly list out almost a dozen of them.

But now, i'm no longer confident.

Because when i thought that if i fall, somebody will be there to catch. 

Nobody will.

Nobody does.

Nobody gives a shit to you.

Comes to the term that there's no eternal friendship just like love.

It's like many of us are just like " Hi, bye" friends.

You can be so close with someone for a moment of time.

But a min later, everything has changed.

He/she just stopped contacting you but you still try your very best to salvage it.

Stupid enough cause it's just one-sided.

And the fact is that you're no longer needed, that's the cruel reality.

I'm sick of it, trust me.

Last time, i used to make effort to catch up with every single of them.

No matter how busy i am, i will.

Now, i blame it on my stupidity for being like this.

I mean like why do you care when they don't?

#i'm not referring to all of my frens 

Now, can anyone answer me this? 

Who can i truly count on?!?!?! 

EXACTLY WHO . 

Can't help it but i feel that one day, you will be all alone. 

It's just a matter of time, just wait for it.

"Those who care, stay. Those who don't, the door is open" 

I don't expect anything anymore.
Reality taught me that "it's better to be alone"