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HELLO peeps, I'm finally back...

Todayyyy is not a good day for me.

Haish, had a big quarrel with my 2nd sister ):

So ya, spent the whole afternoon with teary eyes.

Actually by saying the truth, i tot of suicidal thoughts.

This is really my first time experiencing this.

At that point of time, i don't feel like living anymore.

I feel that life is miserable when i need to study.

But if i dun study, then my future will be ruined.

If my future is ruined, i dun wan to live anymore.

So yup, i just feel that living is so freaking tiring.

I just kept on climbing climbing climbing up to the roof top.

Had the sudden thought of jumping : 一了百了

Guess what happened next ?

Of course i'm not dead or else who's the one blogging?

I suddenly think of what i've counselled my fren about suicide.

I suddenly think of my family member , how they treated me.

I suddenly think of what my mum will do when i'm dead.

So yup, in the end i gave up the suicide thoughts.

I felt so immature of wanting to die just because of a small thing.

Just because of what someone said, i got so emotional.

I felt like i'm the useless person ever in the world.

I wanted to die, FOR FUCK?!

This is my life .

I should control it ; i should't ruined it.

I'm born blissfully with a proper body; proper family & stuffs.

I'm actually very lucky to be like this.

I shouldn't give up my life when i'm just 17.

There are still many things i hadn't complete.

Wasting my life is definitely not worth it ok.

You know why i'm not at least embarrassed to tell you guys?

Cause i dun wan you all to follow into my footsteps.

Last advice:

Be brave, stand up using your own will & move on.

Lead a fulfilling life .

只有懂得放开的人才会开心。

hope i did made an impact on you guys.

Sorry for the horrible english yea.

Goodbye~