4am thoughts

I hate it when i know things have changed but i can't do anything about it. Well, the only thing i can do is to suck it up. Or a better phrase would be: Embrace the change. I've learnt to accept that losing people is part and parcel of life. Enough of the unwillingness. Enough of the sulkiness. Enough of the unhappiness. You can't have the best of both worlds. Sometimes, giving up for one might be the only choice. 

"All people come into our lives for a reason. It may be for seconds, months, years or a lifetime. Each of these has a specific task to complete within our lives. Once their task is complete, they will leave our lives, whether we will it or no. Sometimes the leaving is through the grave, sometimes with a wave and sometimes with nary a whisper.” -SS Lengel

It's the same theory- Holding onto something that don't belong to yours, it's just a matter of time that it will leave you eventually.. What's meant to be yours, will be yours. Sometimes, you just have to learn to let go of things that don't belong to you.  This is life. No matter how unwilling you are, no matter how upset you would be, you still have to let go.

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Honestly, i really wished I've lesser commitments.

I'm always so busy that i don't even have the time to catch my breath.

Seems like 24h in a day is absolutely not enough for me.

I'm barely grasping for air. No kidding.

I've so so so much things to cope with and I'm lost.

I don't know how to set my priorities right.

It feels like every decision you make might affect the other party.

I hate this suffocated feeling.

How i wish i can do whatever i want without considering others' feelings.

Yes i know it's selfish to do that.

But i'm tired.

Real tired...